“tricky” is one of my favorite words. i like the way it sounds, the hard edges of tr and ck and even y. when i say the word, you can almost hear the shadow of my lisp, i’m exposed. it means something difficult, but there’s a lightheartedness or cleverness, too–the trickster. there’s innuendo, turn a… Continue reading transparent materials are tricky
Category: journal
motion design begins
i am a student, again, with deadlines and homework and frustrating starts and stops. i was excited to create something with my own crude emerging hand-drawn animation skills. i originally wanted to animate some word that had mostly stems, like illuminate. but then i read about the symbolism of the mouth in the wonderful A… Continue reading motion design begins
/imagine woman made of colored particles in mirrored landspace
one of my students inspired me to look into an image generation software, Midjourney. their website blurb states: “Midjourney is an independent research lab exploring new mediums of thought and expanding the imaginative powers of the human species.” now, i’ll buy the expanding imaginative powers bit. it’s exciting to see the words–a command, really–typed to… Continue reading /imagine woman made of colored particles in mirrored landspace
black
After the beginning of people but long before painting, all of the colors asked the Creator to be named. Some were given shared names with plants: Violet, Rose, Olive, Saffron. Some were given shared names with animals: Coral, Vermilion, Salmon, Teal. Still others, like Gold and Silver, shared names with metals. After Red was named,… Continue reading black
warehouse wines & spirits, 10003 (v2)
friday evening. crowd at the liquor store.with an armful of bottles she walked, all round and royal, to the checkout.maybe she’s having a dinner party, soon she’d be among friends and raising glasses.the bottle closest to me was priced $2.99, that one would be her cooking wine, poured over beef and flavored with star anise,… Continue reading warehouse wines & spirits, 10003 (v2)
warehouse wines & spirits, 10003 (v1)
she waddled over to the checkout line labelled CREDIT CARD ONLY with her three bottles.“these are all red, right?” she asked the cashier, who held them up to the fluorescent light to check. it’s strange that a mistake in color can amount to a completely different taste. the price tag on one of her bottles… Continue reading warehouse wines & spirits, 10003 (v1)
one by one
i went to the museum with a friend the other day and noticed streaks of gray hair, new to me since i last saw her. we ambled through the exhibit at the pace of her daughter, who plodded around in baby steps and occasionally asked “ou-side?” my friend also had new gestures, holding out an… Continue reading one by one
free
the most effective birth control pills are the ones with a side effect that cuts sex drive down at the knees, a nice clean cut. entire afternoons spent embroidering napkins, not the sanitary kind but the table linen. none of the flowers are perfect, some creases always remain in the material despite ironing at the… Continue reading free
cupid
how can one body pack so many pounds of ugly feeling, then aim it directly towards itself. it’s not right. it’s not the way to success and future glamourshine. hold on i have to go make some tea.(brew)she’s nuts!and cream, and sugar, and butterfat. down her throat into the belly, bypassing nutrition due to craving… Continue reading cupid
isn’t ten years long enough
in between feedings, from a far-off fold deep in the valleys of my intestines, comes the plangent vibration of a bell. the ringing is never loud but it is persistent, and spreads to my head faster than a shudder. i miss my freedom. from resonance to shudder, from shudder to ooze. a big ooze. a… Continue reading isn’t ten years long enough